Flashback 2001: 910 + 911 = Emotional Rape

Hello Chosen One:
These are the unaltered entries that I made in my journal before I cried myself to sleep on the nights of September 10th and 11th 2001.

September 10, 2001 My husband left me tonight...but life goes on...God being my helper. I will not be defeated!! I will not worry...for it changes nothing...My God promises that He will supply all my needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. I will stand on that Word. Yes, I cry for what is lost. I cry...but only when I focus on my situation without factoring God into my situation. But with God, I know that all things are possible! Because Jesus is alive and real...I know the end of this story...I WIN!!!!!
posted by Stanice Anderson at 11:20 PM September 10, 2001



September 11, 2001 The scene is so horrific, surreal, and apocalyptic. The World Trade Center Towers, the pentagon...airplanes crashed into these buildings. Towers actually collapsed! untold number of people dead, maimed, missing, in hospitals, trapped...there is chaos in America...satan is celebrating as is his job to manipulate us to seek, kill, steal, and destroy each other. My God, come soon Lord Jesus....mankind is not doing well on it's own at all. Reports of mothers and fathers killing their children...signaled to me the beginning of the end to life as we once knew it...i knew it had to get worse. And today...it has... All that has happened today...makes my concerns seem scrawny and trivial. So my husband left me last night...I sit here typing---updating my website in the comfort of my home. Many, because of the events of this day, will never come home again. I mourn not for the seeming death of my marriage, but with my nation...my people...the hopes, dreams, lives lost. And I cry with those who love them whose lives will be forever changed because of the events of this day. God strengthen, hold in the palm of Your hands, those that will be unable to sleep tonight, those who are crying out to you for mercy and to bring their loved ones home. Please give us what we need at the exact moment that the need arises...the things that we need that we cannot give to ourselves like peace in the midst of the turmoil, your perspective, courage, and fearlessness. For you have not given us a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. And, God thank you that you will render justice on behalf of your people.
posted by Stanice Anderson at 1:10 PM September 11, 2001

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